it's been a few days. in that time, i started my new job and got my car back!
i. the job.
can i just say, it's really nice to be employed again? i think i'm going to enjoy it. i'll be meeting more of my co-workers in the next few shifts, but so far everyone's been lovely; as for the job itself, it seems like it's going to be a lot of fun! not only that, but i'm working for a company that really cares about its employees, and i really respect and appreciate that. time will tell where i end up career-wise in the future, but i think i'm on the right path for now.
ii. the car.
so for the last few weeks, the little cavalier that could has been having power steering problems. i took it to get repaired and, almost 700 dollars later (my pocketbook sighs), it is MUCH happier--and so am i! i really love my car; most of its major issues over the last five years have been due to typical wear and tear, and it has proven itself to be a reliable vehicle. this is something i'm obviously incredibly grateful for. i'll be sad when we eventually have to part ways, but i'll be happy knowing we've had such a long life together.
also, sometime within the last few days, it finally hit me:
iii. perpetual summer break; acceptance.
really, calling my life post-college "perpetual summer break" is a bit of a misnomer because, as we all know, it's going to get pretty cold and snowing here in a few months, which is not summer weather at all. this is how i've been feeling since may, though, and even though i have that piece of paper from my alma mater declaring me a recipient of a BA in english, all summer i kept thinking that once it came to an end, i'd be off to school once again.
now, i think this is reasonable. after all, i've been going to school for sixteen years. i've had first days of school every year since i was like five. this year, though... i watched as my siblings and friends headed off on their first days of school, going to classes and meeting their classmates and perusing syllabi. just... watched. after a summer of wondering what it would feel like to be in that position, of people telling me it would probably hit me once school started up again for everyone else, well... long story short, they were right.
i'm a college graduate, and being done with school?
(at least until grad school, that is)
i'm totally okay with it.
i was sad at first, and maybe a little jealous, but... there are so many good things about being out in the so-called "real world." i have time for myself now! i can read for pleasure now! i don't have to worry about homework, about trudging across campus in crappy weather, about pulling all-nighters to finish a paper. there are so many opportunities for greatness out there, so much adventuring and exploring to be done, so much LEARNING still to happen. that's one of the biggest things for me, i think--i love learning and i realized that i don't have to be a student at an educational institution to continue expanding my knowledge. there's so much to figure out and i can't wait for all those possibilities.